"Temptation’s Prayer"
I prayed to you, oh God, to give me the strength to restrain my urges, to make me righteous and pure. I asked you for deliverance from evil, to be saved from the temptations of the flesh and sin, to become the righteous and unsullied woman I had hoped to be.
Yet how could I, when I am presented with such temptation? If I am forbidden to sin like this, then why would you dangle such sweet fruit—her touch, her warmth, her presence—right in front of my eyes, just within my grasp?
You bind me, for you know how much I will ravage this forbidden flesh like a hungry beast when I am freed. Wrapped in tight restraints while being presented with the allure of the wicked, Lord, only a fool would not be enticed by such bliss. And I am no fool.
God, I beg of you to take these wicked thoughts away from me, for these shackles can only do so much. My patience is wearing thin, and it will only take one more touch from her for me to break free and consume, and in turn, be consumed by this fire that burns so fiercely within me.
God, I can only sin so much before the lies I tell myself unravel; my flesh has already betrayed my words. We both know this is wrong, and yet here I am, defying what is deemed right.
To say I do not deeply desire the carnality of this act is a sin itself already—a lie.
I promise I’ll confess once I have returned, but until then...
Please, God, let me take a bite of this sin.
